Friday, November 28, 2003

bloody shitty life I am having...

Its not that I wanna complain about my job..of course there is NO PERFECT JOB in this world..you just have to make do with it..be gone with the prospects and good future the job promises me..it a trap and I bloody fell into it...look at the following things and you tell me does the problem lies with me or the org..

1) its a full time shift..bloody hell..I work almost 12 hours 6 days and only a bloody off.

2) cannnot claim taxi fare even though we often work till late at the job..ie. close one hour later or do stock check at the end of the month...that cost me around 100 plus..

3) get crap from boss in the morning 8am when we did not meet sales target everyday( I swear I tried my best..but to them its not the best..they prefer figures)..get nothing when we hit target..at most just a 'well done" or "keep it up" comment

4) salary deducted for stock loss...and wats left ? just enough to feed myself ..

5) lost weight every month...used to be at 58kg..now at only 51..best diet regime i ever seen!!! fuck those diet programs..been seeing the doctor 4 times within 2 months..

6)not enough sleep...6-7 hours..

7) they lie about the promotion prospects..from wat I observe and ask...usually MT like us takes about 2 years to rise up to the next rank..and hardly any oversea attachments..that's my greatest disappointment!!


so tell me..how lah??


Monday, November 24, 2003

hello..anyone out there??

my work have taken most of my time out...spent almost 12 hours in work left with around 7 hrs to sleep and wats left? 5 hrs miscellaneous...at the end of the day ..I just like to find out whats happenning to all my bloggers and friends out there who are also slogging at work..not all maybe..nobody comments on my blog anymore..I am not complaining..maybe they are also busy or simply just can't be bother with it...I am too lazy and tired to write everyday too.

I miss the days of being free before i started my job..but I haven't regret any bit...too late anyway:(...thinking of applying for PE in MOE again.....felt ready to teach again..haha..just a thought...

Friday, November 14, 2003

a relaxing off day..

went for an early meeting on my off day today and had to wake up at 6am...crappy right? The meeting ended around 10+ and I went home immediately to take a nap till 3 pm b4 I am supposed to meet up with zoe for a spa at 4pm...it was quite relaxing lying in the pool and watching the sunset ..we were bothe chatting about how our life is nowadays..a bit of catching up and met up with a cute german man who was the regional director of time warner...fancy that!!

He give us a few tips about line switching, why we should do it fast while still young...got enlightened by him. the rest of it was spent lazing in the pool talking cock...after that went for dinner at marche .the softshell crap was fabulous!! though its cost a small bomb..its been a while since I had pampered myself with a sumptous meal.

Watched the movie "wishing stairs" at marina square, kind of creepy and scary but still lose out to tale of 2 sisters in terms of plot and depth...not to say its a "b" flick movie...the story was quite sad too...about the betrayal bet. 2 good friends...

To wrap up, this has been my most relaxing and enjoyable off since I have started work...well .hope more to come..:)

Thursday, November 13, 2003

days of thunder.....

its been days since I have blog. Since I had finish my reservist, I 've beeen thrown into the chaotic and pressure cooker life again...losing my sleep over sales..feeling weak and restless.. I bloody need my 8 hrs of sleep. losing my abs, my appetite, my hair and my glow..

Tuesday, November 04, 2003

Rainny day

its been raining the whole damn day...nothing been done and only sleep and play tai di in camp....boring..

Monday, November 03, 2003

Ong bak

damn good show...reminds me of jacky chan 's movies when he was young..the dare devil stunts, the high kicks and the deadly punch..But towards the finale, it was censored..damn sickening..if its deem too violent, it should be rated RA! We paid so much and in the end we are cheated...fuck the censorship!!!

Next coming is the matrix..I am anticipating it and hopefully, no censorship!!

Sunday, November 02, 2003

relationships...

A relationship coach lays out his 5 golden rules for evaluating the
prospects of long-term success. When it comes to making the decision
about choosing a life partner, no one wants to make a mistake. Yet, with a
divorce rate of close to 50 percent, it appears that many are making serious
mistakes in their approach to finding Mr./Ms. Right!

If you ask most couples who are engaged why they're getting married,
they'll say "We're in love." I believe is the #1 mistake people make when
they date.

Choosing a life partner should never be based on love (alone).

Though this may sound not politically correct, there's a profound
truth here. Love (alone) is not the basis for getting married. Rather,
love is the result of a good marriage. When the other ingredients are right,
then the love will come.

Let me say it again: You can't build a lifetime relationship on love
alone. You need a lot more. Here are five questions you must ask
yourself if you're serious about finding and keeping a life partner.

QUESTION #1:
Do we share a common life purpose?

Why is this so important? Let me put it this way: If you're married
for 20 or 30 years, that's a long time to live with someone. What do you
plan to do with each other all that time? Travel, eat and jog together?
You need to share something deeper and more meaningful. You need a common
life purpose.

Two things can happen in a marriage. You can grow together, or you can
grow apart. 50 percent of the people out there are growing apart. To make a
marriage work, you need to know what you want out of life - bottom
line - and marry someone who wants the same thing.

QUESTION #2:
Do I feel safe expressing my feelings and thoughts with this person?

This question goes to the core of the quality of your relationship.
Feeling safe means you can communicate openly with this person. The
basis of having good communication is trust - i.e. trust that I won't get
"punished" or hurt for expressing my honest thoughts and feelings. A
colleague of mine defines an abusive person as someone with whom you
feel afraid to express your thoughts and feelings. Be honest with yourself
on this one. Make sure you feel emotionally safe with the person you plan
to marry.

QUESTION #3:
Is he/she a mensch?

A mensch is someone who is a refined and sensitive person. How can you test?
Here are some suggestions. Do they work on personal growth on a regular
basis? Are they serious about improving themselves? A teacher of mine
defines a good person as "someone who is always striving to be good and
do the right thing". So ask about your significant other: What do they do
with their time? Is this person materialistic? Usually a materialistic
person is not someone whose top priority is character refinement. There are
essentially two types of people in the world: People who are dedicated
to personal growth and people who ar e dedicated to seeking comfort.

Someone whose goal in life is to be comfortable will put personal comfort
ahead of doing the right thing. You need to know that before walking down the aisle.

QUESTION #4:
How does he/she treat other people?

The one most important thing that makes any relationship work is the
ability to give. By giving, we mean the ability to give another
person pleasure. Ask: Is this someone who enjoys giving pleasure to
others or are they wrapped up in themselves and self-absorbed? To measure
this, think about the following:

How do they treat people whom they do not have to be nice to, such as a
waiters, bus boy, taxi driver, etc. How do they treat parents and siblings?
Do they have gratitude and appreciation? Do they show respect? If they
don't have gratitude for the people who have given them everything, you
cannot expect that they'll have gratitude for you-who can't do nearly as
much for them! Do they gossip and speak badly about others?

Someone who gossips cannot be someone who loves others. You can be sure
that someone who treats others poorly, will eventually treat you poorly as well.

QUESTION #5:
Is there anything I'm hoping to change about this person after we're married?

Too many people make the mistake of marrying someone with the intention of
trying to "improve" them after they're married. As a colleague of mine puts
it, "You can probably expect someone to change after marriage... for the worse!"
If you cannot fully accept this person the way they are
now, then you are not ready to marry them.

In conclusion, dating doesn't have to be difficult and treacherous.
The key is to try leading a little more with your head and less with your
heart. It pays to be as objective as possible when you are dating, to be
sure to ask questions that will help you get to the key issues.

Falling in love is a great feeling, but when you wake up with a ring
on your finger, you don't want to find yourself in trouble because you
didn't do your homework.

Saturday, November 01, 2003

the gloomy me...

a friend of mine told me that I lost the cheerfulness and spark in me lately...compared to a month ago when I was still in a holidaying mood...the word is gloomy.I felt the same way too...its not the sleep that causes it..though it might have contributed to the eye bags ...somehow I just lost it. I had previous jobs too but it doesn't felt that bad..

Did I chose the wrong path...venturing into sales is something that I had never dream b4..too used to being served and haveing free time on weekends. But now its a 360 degrees turn for me. even though I told myself to be patient and determined..its is still quite hard for me to swallow the fact. There is no wrong or right in life..you just have to accept what's coming and the consequences
what can I say? I had it coming..but I see it as an investment..no pain..no gain right?

I smoke yesterday...out field in reservist..I don't even know why I pick up the stick..its been 5 years since I touch it..maybe its the experiences i heard from my team mates..how are they doing in in life..some are earning more than me...some married with kids already..some being a boss..etc.
But wat about me..what had I achieve in life? I know certain things cannot be compared..we all lead a diff life...but we are all human. Its not that qualification that counts...its the attitude towards life. I had platoon mates who are younger than me but have achieve greater things in life...I realised that my experience and knowledge is very little..the thought and the gloomy sunset just makes me to have the impulse to have a drag....

Can I accept and adapt to my consequences?time will tell..