another eve..

how did I spend my last new year eve ..good queston..oh..I remember ..I spent both X'mas and new year's eve in Japan. That was a cold but enjoyable eve for me..I can still remember the streets of tokyo ..brightly lit neon lights with beautiful people strolling by..I did not join in the count down but instead I found a nice coffee place and chill out with my colleague...temp was 3 degree...taht was REALLY chilling out! but the coffee was heartening and we watch the people passing by..indulging the chill ....

It was a special feeling then but now..if you ask me how I want to spend my eve..I had no idea.Friends around seems to have their programs planned out long ago..I felt left out..In the past I would have organised outings , dinner, etc during te eve...but now...I guess I am being too lazy or to be more accurate...I run out of ideas. There are many countdown events in here..friends asked me to join in the fun..yeah...but imagine squeezing with thousands of people in sentosa, get drowned by foams and wet all over till the next morning....no thanks. I would rather watch the telecast at home...cheaper still..safer too.

Got a friend who chio me to suntec for countdown by foreign DJs...no doubt the Djs are awesome..but then again..you have to squeeze with throngs of people to enjoy the music..I had that experience in zoukout b4...either I got elbowed or being shadowed by tall guys in front....I am short..not cheap either. I am still considering the option though cos eve will be pretty boring if your are not doing anything..

Sometimes I can't help being jealous of people who already have programs planned out for them..they just need to wait for people to call them..the "beautiful" ones..the popular ones..the sporting ones..but people like me ..a plain john.. have to organise ..go thru the agony of people rejecting .." Sorry got something on ".."Wat! Again these few guys??"...." I am tired..want to rest".." let me think about it...confirm with you later" ..usually that means they had some other things in mind and just don't wanna break your heart, in the eleventh hour, they will SMS you and not CALL you ..saying cannot make it...and some other lame excuses..Why can't they reply directly.." I just don't like your program" ..."you are a pretty boring person ...I don't wanna hang out with you!"...Even though it hurts..at least I know I won't ask you out again the future.

Its hard to be popular..some guys just have the gift of the gab or the pretty outlook...but then again..God is fair to all..you given them some , you take away some..that explain why humans are not perfect at all.

I have already made a decision...if no one ask me out or I can't think of any programs..I will just stay at home...sleep and gym the next day...Work is still the better option...no need to think so much wat to do. Wish tomorrow will be a better day..

Happy eve to all:)

the eve...

HAd a great dinner at zoe 's place today..her mum's cooking is simply fabulous..esp the chicken chop with the "can die for" sauce..the spring chicken was well marinated too and plus my red wine..it was a perfect setting. I nearly got drunk after a few mouthful!! I really suck at wine..and kena sabo by zoe and company. Her tenant zi hui was present too.

After that we decide to go out and walk walk..at orchard..it was a fatal choice really. When we reach there , we are overwhelmed by great throngs of people esp...bangalis..they are simply pushing..worst was the crowd there were spraying foams and all kinds of sprays at us..the onlookers also kena ..the face, hair..you name it!! worst in our group, zoe's tenant was groped by a freaking guy...even though the whole street was packed ..it was quite obvious that he purposely reach out his hand ...we create quite a commotion but due to the unruly crowd...we were pushed to the side and that fucking guy was nowhere to be seen..we all were kena foamed on out face, clothes zoe had the worst..she got sprayed blue on her back and hair...damn pissed off!!

We walk the entire street from lido to HMV and turn back via the back alleys..no way we are gonna the torture again!
It was almost 2am when we reach fengseng for our usual supper.

What a peaceful X'mas!! I swear I will never set foot in orchard during X'mas and New year's eve!!

the gym..

at last , after 3 months of hectic and shitty work..I finally went to the gym today. I tested out my physique and well..not too bad..still able to run 5 km without much difficulty. But I failed miserably at the weights:(

Spent almost 2 hrs there..feeling spent but shiok..must get down more often..esp in this rainy season..best to run indoors.
met a small incident in the sauna room though..got being stared at by a man..quite muscular...I was there standing in the room (still got a towel on)..damn this guy just came in and keep glancing at me...My god..I was so embarrassed and I thought back of the incident when I got "touched" by a pervert in teh same place..luckily some guy bumped in..am I that attractive to the same sex!!?? Did I look sexy to him...F***!! everyone is wearing the same towel..I was the skinniest...a bit white though..

Damn!!If only I could attract the right gal..

sweet dreams to me....

I had 3 days of sleep and finally I am dreamming again!! I quit my job and if everything goes smooth ..I should be starting as a sport executive next week at skateline..:)

at least won't be working on christmas , new year..holidays..prospect is better ..and best is .it close to my nature..sports!!I can't be a PE teacher .confirmed..liao receive letter of rejection from MOE few days ago..guess they thought I might be too old for the job..at least I can rest my case on that.

Really ..really really hope I can stay in this job longer..at least for a year...and then I can strike out on my own when the time is ripe. sick of job hopping..I can now brush up my blading skills with the training sessions..

merrymerrymerrymerrymerrymerry christmas...hohohoohoohho!!

circle of life....

sometimes...fate really plays us like a fool...after all the trouble and shit we went thru'...we are still at the starting point. not advancing much ..but we become more hardened,streetwise and realised what we really want in our life..I am being emotional again...pardon me.

its just an afterthought after all the things I went thru for the past 2 years...Its time to wake up from my fantasy and go for the real thing...

A soon to be ex-colleague of mine who knows a little about palmistry told me that my relationship line is actually quite good in the past but I mess it up and miss the chance now..well when did I had a gal to mess up with in the first place? that is something which I kept asking myself...I am too busy with work to concentrate on relationship!! I guess its my job that is messing up my life:P

rainy days soon to be over...

finally I am gaining back my freedom next tues..handing over my work to someone else..good luck to whoever is going to take over me.There's a price to pay .but I shall not dwell too much into it..compare to my health and freedom , these are nothing. Treat it as a learning experience.... Thanks to my friend who is willing to tide me over..I owe her one.

As to what I am going to do in the future, I shall keep mum ..certain things are better left unsaid unless you have achieved it... but be assured that I am still chasing my dream and it hasn't changed..for those who knows me well, you should know what is it.

Hopefully the coming new year will be a better one for me. I remember when I was touring in japan last december..I visited a temple and got my fortunes told. The lot that I drew said that I will have bad luck and financial problem for the year 2003 ..hopefully its only FOR THIS YEAR!! I really hope to go back there and have my fortune told.

Anyway , tomorrow will be a better day..I hope:)