Life less ordinary....

Saw today's news on the 4th victim who died in his sleep. I pity his wife...must be on her lowest point of her life. They could have start a family soon ....is this fated or is there some scientific answer to this. Beofre he died, it was reported that he was busy opening 2nd clinic and working 15 hours a day! His intention is good as he wants to provide a better life for his family. However, in the midst of his materialistic pursuit, he lost everything overnight. Good thing is he died in the comfort of his home , body intact , breathing his last next to his wife.

But he bought grief to his dear ones, how are they gonna live w/o him? Perhaps he is not to be blamed. The society we live in is the biggest culprit. We lived in a very materialistic society where everything is measured by monetary value and status. In order to survive, we have to pursuit for these and we usually lost more than we gain. But in life, there's no free lunches in this world. Perhaps it would be a good thing to re-evaluate ourselves at different stage of our life...to measure the success we had against the lost we incur and made some neccesary adjustment. ...about the real meaningful things we ought to pursuit.

There can never be the best of everything as human are greedy by nature and we always want more..but there are ppl who are able to see thru this web of deceit and are totally at ease with what they have. Simplicity is pure happiness for them.. could I do that?...I am trying cos I am sick of this fruitless pursuit of materialism back then ....trying to be content with what I have. Trying to give more than to take. It makes me feel good when I see the less fortunate happy. I am trying......

我要的世界

远方天空
云层遮盖前往方向
迷失在黑暗之中
天使问我
手中紧握不放的是什麽
我说寻找梦想的灯火
有时我会失去力量
再艰难的旅途
也要骄傲的走过
眼前的世界
音乐演奏中
不停挑战我
就算曾悲伤过

我要的世界
梦想在怀中
未来呼唤我
相信我会坚强的走到最后

人生会有疲惫想放弃的时候
看不清路的尽头
天使身后
太阳照醒希望的翅膀
那是
未来伸出的双手
失去过相信的力量
再艰难的旅途
也要骄傲的走过
眼前的世界
音乐演奏中
不停挑战我
就算曾悲伤过

我要的世界
梦想在怀中
未来呼唤我
相信我会坚强的走到最后

眼前的世界
音乐演奏中
不停挑战我
就算曾悲伤过
我要的世界
梦想在怀中
未来呼唤我
相信我会坚强的走到最后

真挚 (Friendship)

还记得最后一次 离別在无情城市
我们都强忍泪湿 默默的欲言又止
背影消失 思念悄悄开始
从前的懵懂幼稚 现在的相惜相知
不变的是心的真挚
欢乐悲伤的事永远不会流逝 只有你们才知
有时候 会有软弱和无助
有朋友我不孤独
朋友是一生一世 互相扶持
我们用毫不保留的方式
我们的关怀永远不停止 天涯咫尺
唯独真情最真实
朋友是一生一世 到老到丑
属于我

5 hours........

Went to see doc for my tummy pain today...think its the 2nd time in 3 months that I am seeing him for the same symptons but this time is less severe than the 1st when I vomitted, shitted in the pants and kena knived alive by the pain....This time only kena knived in the tummy. He told me to watch what I am eating...too much of something is no good...and MUST EAT SLOWLY!!!!

Fuck the army loh, they are the one who forced us to finished our meal within 5 mins...just gobbled and swallowed. Saying when war time, where got time to slowly eat your food..knnccb....if war came, everyone would have fled.

Anyway doc gave me some medicine for gastric, stomach pain...and pills on diarhhea. The pills are quite powerful, felt drowsy and sleepy after 10 mins..immediate crashed into bed.....but I din't really slept well...fidgeting a lot cos I don have habit to sleep in the afternoon..climb out about 4 to take my medicine...feeling drugged and bit giddy....hopefully tomorrow will be well ...haiz....

Sunday

My poor legs..after nearly whole day of standing...the soles are sore when I walk and I had to limp slightly. Besides, i have been pushing myself for the past few weeks in running. Its really cool and nice to run at night and tendency not to feel tired as you don sweat so much and could run for more distance till it overshot my limit...think its my adrenalin pumping too hard that i can't stop..

After the run, I will still feel high but the next day I would wake up tired as if I had came back from 42km marathon...maybe I should relax and stop puching myself too hard...actually, I don know why I am doing this ...as if there's a inner me that controls my mind ...anyway...went to see the biennale at tanglin camp today with a friend as it is closing soon next week. I still have a bit left of stuffs to visit and this time we went early. Tanglin camp is my fav site among all as I like the natural surroundings ..lush trees and leaves..fresher air and would be surprise that it is located freaking near to orchard. If not for the biennale ...I wouldn't have known there's such a place. It was just a few old army barracks but the feeling to me is kinda special.

I like it for it being laid back and simple...forthcoming and true. It really reflects my character. Feel very much at peace when I stepped foot in them. I wonder if the camp would be still there should the biennale returns. The organiser really puts in a lot of hard work in choosing the sites and kudos to them for making the right choice. Creative modern arts in run down camps...very dynamic and thoughtful I must say.
We arrive around 3+ and left about 6pm. I felt a pang of sadness when I left the place..its like going back to the harsh working world after a great holiday. Everything seems bleak and sucky....oh well..the harsh realities of life...good things always comes to an end somehow....

I was rather happy that at least I got the companion of my friend cos we could exchange our views in how we interpret these creative works.... somehow I thought she looked tired and I felt a bit guilty asking her along for my pleasure... she had a bad stomachache too in the morning too...ouch..hope she is ok ......

Another week has gone by and its gonna be monday again...time flies......life still goes on ....

Its a dog 's life!

its been a long time since I blog...no inspirations leh but I just walk the dog with my friend so got the urge to blog...can't sleep anyway.Its a first for me to walk the dog at night..maybe "run the dog" would be a better discription cos most of the time we are running around NTU. Thanks to my friend for letting me to hold the leash...its a nice feeling being lead on..at times but the dog keep stopping at every single tree ... leaving its scent behind so that it can find its way back. ...clever creature...

Its nice to walk at night and I never realise at this hour (around 12+ actually) , there are still ppl jogging and strolling..hmmm...think I might try jogging at late night ..at least won't feel lonely running alone..and its definitely much cooler. Bad thing is I can't sleep now..having the after effects. Feeling a bit hyper and restless... I really envy mike , its so carefree..everyday it just eat, sleep, shit and play. Of course, its blessed with a kind owner. Sometimes a dog's life is much better than the life ppl are living. At least it don't have much worries....its just about getting fed and a nice bed to lie on....its a simple life.

I suddenly have the urge to get a dog.... but thinkng back..its just not the right time now..got other things to worry about. but I'll get one when things got settled down..in a years time? hopefully...then I'll shower all my attention on it and it will be the most luckiest dog on earth! We 'll do night walk and jog 3x a week...on weekends we will go for nice outings at east coast or sentosa....have nice dinner by the pool/beach...introduce the cutest bitch mary, mable or watever to him...muahahha..he'll never regret being a dog in this lifetime!!! I think I got too excited here...opps...I am doing all the stuffs that I would fantasize on myself!!

Actually, attention and love is all that matters. The dog knows it and feels it...and it will repay u by being loyal and caring....Human are alike too...who doesn't wanna to be loved and supported? Its tiring to fight the battle alone...u don know when u will just give up and drop dead.... but its different if there's someone behind you ...constantly giving support and love. Someone to share your woes and glory. What's the point of winning the world but no one to share the happiness with you....赢了世界又如何。。am I gonna meet one soon?? ..or maybe she's just around the corner but I just didn't notice..que sara sara...