What's with me???

Its been really a long long time since I've blogged. Every time i had the urge to blog , I hesitated...maybe its not worth blogging at that moment...maybe I don't know how to phrase my thoughts in words.

So many things happen recently...I felt imprisoned in a cage ...unable to escape out of my hell....I don't have a habbit to talk about it and when ppl see my smily face and laughter..they think I am just the same old me..joky and positive guy who have nothing to worry about. Well.... I am not a person who shows my emotions easily..I just don't wanna spoil the mood of others (even when they always says "I will lend my ears for you if u wanna talk..." ) What for? that can't solve my problems.... pppl will just keep coming back to ask how I am..am I ok..blah blah blah....I appreciate their concern but all the more it makes me more vex and useless but I can't be bothered to explain further when I 've got so much on my mind. Ya i am egoistic...but which guy aren't? Man and woman are born different.

To some extent , the current world cup seems to offer some solace to me cos it helps to lift me out of my sad thoughts and enjoy for a full 90 mins of excitement and pleasure...( extra time helps too:) The betting make its more heart thumping too.. haha. However, I am on the red now luckily my bets are small... hopefully I can recoup back the losses soon.

Alright...till then see la vi!